Right here we go it is finally time to find my style and start building my perfect wardrobe to fit that style that I settle on. I am now going to be documenting the journey of me transforming my wardrobe into the perfect clothing and footwear rotation for all aspects of my life. With this journey I really need to think practically the clothing needs to work for the day job as well as day to day life including when I attend football matches. I need the wardrobe to be versatile and full of pieces that work well together in rotation although as I am a woman who prefers a more masculine style this can be a bit more difficult. Alongside building my wardrobe this journey is also about finding my identity whilst challenging the norms which I guess makes this journey a bit more interesting.
My current situation is a bit of a nightmare and here is why...
Going into the wardrobe and still don't feel like I have anything to wear
My wardrobe is full however, I go into the spare room which doubles as my dressing room daily and feel like I have absolutely nothing to wear. In all honestly I get super overwhelmed when it comes to getting ready daily as I just look at how much is in the space and realise there are too many options now and it is getting ridiculous. How do you have a full wardrobe yet still can't happily and easily get ready on a morning?
Wasting money for the sake of it
My relationship with shopping is absolutely ridiculous now and I need to take steps to work on this. I have found I buy items for the sake of it just avoid coming home empty handed. This means I am spending my hard earnt money just so I feel like I haven't wasted a few hours of my day which I am now realising is a really stupid thing to do.
Clothing still with tags on
When I look in my wardrobe I am now more aware than ever that a lot of clothing in the space still have tags on. Some have been in the wardrobe for a long time too so there is really no excuse for them to still have the tag hanging from them. The amount like this is absolutely ridiculous to be honest and just highlights to me that I buy items for the sake of it and I need to think about purchases before making them.
Following trends when they aren't for me
I have been sucked into following trends even when they aren't me for too many years now and my wardrobe is full of pieces I am still trying to justify buying. When I recently looked into my wardrobe I have noticed a lot of pieces that are from past trends that I don't even remember buying, it is ridiculous really when I see just how many are just hanging there.
Clothing the doesn't fit right
I have been putting off the decluttering of the wardrobe and due to my weight loss journey I have got a lot of clothing that doesn't fit right which is causing issues when I am getting ready. I go to put a t-shirt on and it is hung off me or has shrunk in the wash and it is starting to really annoy me. This is 100% my own fault as the declutter needs to happen more often with the weight loss so I am not caught out when getting ready and know that everything I have actually fits before stressing myself out putting the outfit together and it not working.
I feel awful in the clothes I wear & feel paranoid
My clothing at the moment just doesn't make me feel good which is possibly one of the worst things for me. Look good feel good is a motto I have always loved and it is one that I need to start to live by, my wardrobe at the moment just leaves me paranoid that people will be judging me for what I am wearing and that things just make me look even bigger than I am. Nothing inspires me and I feel like nothing works together so why is my wardrobe being allowed to be like this? It is creating a nightmare situation and needs to change.
I let other people effect my purchases
I am a tomboy, I have more of an androgynous/masculine style and that is what I need to lean into however, I let family members tell me that isn't right and that I should be solely shopping in the women's department. To stop people complaining I just go with the flow and follow what they say which leads to me feeling uncomfortable and stressed all day. I really need to stop listening to others and dress how I want for a change.
So those are the reasons my situation is currently a nightmare however, I am determined that by going on this journey and documenting it on here an social media things really change and the following starts to happen...
Start to feel more comfortable & confident
I am really hoping that this journey helps me start to dress more comfortable and lead to me being more confident going forward. By dressing how I really want my confidence should certainly improve alongside me losing weight too which is going to help in so many other areas of my life too. I think by dressing for me I am going to see a huge change in life but we shall see how that plays out.
Have a better relationship with shopping
As I said earlier my relationship with shopping is totally out of control and really needs to change. I am hoping this journey helps me become more intentional with my purchases and helps me only buy what I really need. This will help me save money and will also mean I am only buying things I am going to get my wear out of, something that definitely doesn't happen currently.
Getting ready becomes much easier
I am hoping this journey helps me getting ready daily much easier than it currently is. I want to be able to head into the room on a work day and know just what is going to work together and what isn't, I want to be able to know just what to wear for the football too or even a day out. If the guess work and overwhelm is taking away then I am onto a winner. The clothing I buy for this journey should work for all occassions too so the outfit combinations should just fall right into place.
Get more wear out of my clothes
If everything goes to plan with this journey I will only be buying clothing that fits that style I am opting for so I should be getting a whole lot more wear out of my clothing for a change. I feel like this is going to really help me going forward as it means money isn't being wasted and I know what actually works and what may need to change if items aren't being worn as much. I am looking forward to seeing just how much I can change when it comes to actually wearing the clothing I have purchased.
Become the true me
I am hoping this journey helps me become the real me, no more dressing for others this journey is all about me dressing how I want to and not letting others opinions bring me down and keep me from expressing myself properly like I currently do. It is time for me to show my real personality and try block out anything negative from those around me. No more buying to conform it is time to bend the rules a bit.
This journey is definitely going to be going on a while however, I am really looking forward to seeing just how it plays out. I am thinking progress is going to be a bit small as I lose this bulk of my weight as I am not going to be buying a lot as my size changes although there will be some purchases to just help on a bit of a budget. The big chunk of progress will be as I finally get close to my end weight goal as my size will start settling down. As I say for now I am going to be experimenting on a budget which is going to be a nice little challenge and will help me realise just what works when I do finally hit that goal. I am really looking forward to how this goes as I have really struggled with the tomboy & androgynous style in the past so with a focus on it let's see how it all plays out. Let's get working on finding my style and building the perfect wardrobe!
See you soon
Lucy
